Holy Hell: A Memoir of Faith, Devotion, and Pure Madness

I was impressed by Gail Tredwell's writing, especially for a first book. Definitely better than expected based on some of the reviews I had read. It was quite descriptive and kept me engaged--I read it in a matter of hours. But more importantly, it seemed like a genuine effort towards finding and communicating the truth. I like truth. I don't know what really went on at the M.A. Math although I was involved in a low key way for about 10 years at a U.S. M.A Center quite awhile back. I just knew to not get too involved, I could see there were things going on that I would not want to be involved with. I saw a lot of ego manifesting in many ways. I could see that despite Ammachi's powerful spiritual aura, there was a mythology being created around and about her. I did profoundly enjoy the music and the beautiful Indian ritual involving flower petals, oil lamps and camphor and most of all the love that seemed to radiate from Ammachi and the love and fellowship of the people who came to the events. However, I had some experiences that eventually made me realize being involved with the M.A. Center was really not for me. A few of them vaguely echoed some of the experiences mentioned in Holy Hell, but for the most part I was not privy to the kinds of information and experience Gail was. I heard from people who had gone to India years ago that some of Ammachi's relatives were building big palatial houses on the other side of the river and did not believe that her family's fishing business could have taken off to that extent. I would go into the question line and find that Ammachi did not know what was on my mind as we were told she did and would not understand the background information relating to my question, so would not answer it in a meaningful way. I actually never really believed that Ammachi was too pure to menstruate, that her body worked in such a supernatural way because she had Type 1 diabetes and neck issues, both very human conditions. I heard people referring to Amma and her enterprises as Amma Inc. at least a decade ago because it was generally acknowledged it had become a big business. There is enough concurrence by others of some of Gail's claims that her narrative needs to be taken seriously. There are accounts by people agreeing that Ammachi indeed does hit and abuse those in her service and that smuggling and tax fraud takes place. It is very unclear how much of the vast amount of donations that are given to the M.A. Math go to charities although it is clear some of it does. I think that should be explained in detail by the M.A. Math with along with an ongoing public accounting of all donations received and what they are utilized for. Records of their financial plans should be provided. I just want the truth to come out and soon because many people have dedicated their lives to the service of Ammachi and her mission. I say this not knowing what the truth is, just whatever it is let the sunlight shine on a situation which clearly has harmed a number of people and has the potential to harm many more. And I mean on both sides....I suggest Gail provide whatever evidence she has to support her views soon as well. If even a portion of what Gail claims went on at Ammachi's ashram and on the tours is true, then this would likely be devastating to many people. They may wind up feeling duped and very angry--and even worse feel they have wasted years of their precious lives and find themselves lost and deeply disillusioned. At least let it be over if it needs to be. Let them move on if necessary. And if Ammachi and her swamis are largely innocent of the unethical and cruel actions described by Gail, let them be exonerated. The moral of this story, IMO, is be captain of your own ship. Don't give over your power to a guru or any other type of spiritual leader. We've seen and heard the story of corrupt gurus over and over--Sathya Sai Baba, Muktananda and Maharishi Mahesh Yogi to name just a few. Also in some corrupt Christian ministries and in the Catholic Church priest pedophilia situation. The truth must be found in our own hearts and even then, it is still a little suspect because we have human hearts that are so affected by our own hopes, fears, desires and egos. Question even your own self. Where does faith come in? I don't know but somewhere...but faith in the light itself, not in a fallible human. As Lord Acton said--power corrupts and absolute power tends to corrupt absolutely. He had it right. Humans tend to be corrupted by power. I have read some of the letters from Ammachi devotees criticizing Gail for her human weaknesses such as feeling annoyed when the gifts given to the female brahmacharinis were less than those to the males, and that she desired more comfort and love for herself. Her honesty about her own weaknesses are her strength (if those things are even weaknesses) and the feelings she described seemed completely normal and natural for a human being, especially under circumstances of abuse and exhaustion. When we acknowledge who we really are, we can evolve. As long as we are deluding ourselves and/or others we are stunted. The best outcome of the publishing of Holy Hell would be for more truth and more light to manifest.

HOLY HELL-A memoir of Faith, Devotion and Pure Madness By Gail Tredwell a.k.a. Gayatri, 2013 Gail Tredwell, an Australian woman, dedicated 20 years of her life in the service of Mata Amirtanandamayi, better known as the “hugging Amma”. She thought she could find God through her devotion to Amma, her “guru”. She was terribly disappointed with her guru and turn of events. Gail was ill- treated and debased. Her relationship with her guru denigrated into a salvo of one-sided insults. Gail came to seek Truth but landed slaving for her master. There were salacious comings and goings in the Ashram among devotees. Some of the donations to the ashram were rechanneled into the coffers of Amma’s family. Holly Hell chronicles Gail‘s life- experience in Amma’s ashram. Her life story begins with Amma’s divine awakening and the early days of the establishment of Amma’s ashram. Gail is not only an observant-participant but a privy to the dynamics within the ashram. She writes with a passion and shows an amazing recall of events of her impaired experience. Gail’s story is just one side of the coin. Amma has a following of more than 20 million people worldwide. Through her embrace, she comforts and eases those in emotional or physical pain. Her life is dedicated in easing the sufferings of the poor. The charity “Embracing the World” founded by her is an international network of local and global charities that strives to meet the basic needs of the poor in areas of food, shelter, health, and education. How could Amma have achieved all these if she did not have some inexplicable power? One may also ask why an educated and well-travelled woman like Gail Tredwell could suffer indignities over 20 years without seeking recourse. She was sexually assaulted with impunity by one of Amma’s senior ordained swamis and yet suffered in silence. She could have left the ashram of her own free will or escaped without detection at any point of her long stay in the ashram. Why did it take 20 years of suffering before she took courage to leave the ashram? Was it a love-hate relationship? Her outpourings of ill treatment and claims of a degenerated relationship in which she was not equal, only raises doubt. It is incongruent with Amma’s popularity in the world- stage. Whatever the reason behind Gail’s’s book, which incidentally is an easy read, it is a book that one must read and arrive at one’s own conclusion.

‘Holy Hell’ is above all a story of innocence and trust betrayed. I bought the book from this site within days of it being released and read it cover to cover almost in one sitting. Have read most of these reviews – the five star and the one star ones, and, like others, have come to the same conclusion that most of one star reviewers had not even read the book. Because if they had they would see that above all Tredwell’s story is one about her quest to find God. That throughout this book she never actually wavers in her belief in God and it is probably for that reason that she suffered such abuse for as long as she did. She came to Sudhamani Idamannel (Amma) offering her everything. And I do not mean her worldly goods, of which she almost had none at the time. But she came to this guru, who at that point in time was little known outside her local region in Kerala, offering her youth, her innocence, her trust, her devotion, and above all her love of God. She came to Idamannel believing that by offering herself up to this guru that it would bring her even closer to God. From what I can see she was already leading a saintly existence herself at the Sri Ramana Maharshi ashram at Arunachala in the year she spent there before she came to Idamannel. Meditating daily and herself having already undergone some intense mystical experiences, not unlike those described in Idamannel’s biographies. She was also using her meagre financial resources to make meals and feed others, some of the poor near to the ashram and other ashram residents in need of support. So she also, for one so young, was demonstrating much compassion for her fellow beings. Had decided to become vegetarian for that reason. Who knows if she had not met Idamannel where her devotion would have led her. Possibly SHE herself would have started to attract a following. But one thing is for sure, she came offering SO much to this woman. THAT is what makes this book so shocking. Of how Idamannel possibly never even saw the light in her when she first came to her. Did not even appreciate these special qualities in that young woman in the portrait at the beginning of the book, who is full of so much light and purity. But what she certainly did see was a trusting and gullible young woman, a strong and healthy young woman who wished to serve her and, above all, a white woman, that she could then have accompanying her everywhere to help promote her and bring her to fame. Neal Rosner (Nealu) appears to have failed her abysmally after her arrival. A young woman barely 21 who accompanies him to Idamannel’s village , a man committed to a religious life but in his thirties. He then allows her to be used as Idamannel’s servant and the work horse for the community, toiling in the oppressive tropical heat in primitive village conditions preparing meals and doing the washing and other tasks, whilst he, protected by his wealth, his ill health and his gender, opts out of any real responsibility for what is going on, spending extended periods lying around in his hut because of this illness. What those who have only given this book one star fail to realise, and who condemn Tredwell for her “betrayal” of her guru and her lack of faith is that if anyone did the betraying it was Idamannel. What was taken from this woman was her dream of living in a state of Grace, to be One with God. The vileness of what happened to her at the hands of Balu, Idamannel’s #1, Swami Amritasvarupananda. If such a thing had happened in a Catholic religious community it would become evidence in an enquiry into abuse within the Catholic Church! Joel Kramer and Dianna Alstad, authors of ‘The Guru Papers: Masks of Authoritarian Power’ , who endorsed this book, would have seen straight away what had happened to Tredwell. The second part of their book’s title – Masks of Authoritarian Power’, which is what I believe is happening in all guru/devotee relationships. The mind games and the tricks these usually very charismatic and invariably narcissistic people use in order to manipulate others and control them. In the case of Idamannel, someone I believe who is one of the most clever and unscrupulous of them, it is ALL about a mask. Preying, as Tredwell says in her final pages, after finally realising the true nature of this woman, on the needy, the desperate, the trusting and above all, the innocent. The much publicised humanitarian works, the hook which Idamannel uses in the West to pull in so many new devotees, and the donations, has now been shown to be nothing other than a hollow PR exercise. The evidence now being out there on the Indian government’s Home Office site that less than 10% of these donations actually are used for real humanitarian projects and that 63% is being held in foreign banks. Another reviewer having provided detailed information. I believe that this book will become a classic in the genre of guru exposés, and a text that many will refer to in future years. It is very well-written and entertaining. And above all the sincerity of Tredwell shines through. This is why I give it five stars!

This book is not just for those with experience of Amma. Even seekers who've never been drawn to a guru or a cult, need to read it. Gail Tredwell lived an incredible story and she is an incredible writer. Her clean, concise style pulls the reader in more than buckets of purple prose could ever do. Despite decades of use and abuse by Amma, her response is compassionate, balanced, and thoughtful. She lets the truth shine through like the proverbial light in the darkness. It is obvious Gail is a real spiritual seeker - then, now, and always. This book makes clear the magnetic pull of cults, and why it is so hard to believe the truth - even when faced with daily evidence of the guru's lies. The details of her spiritual journey into the Amma cult, her long years as the cult's premier member - "Amma's shadow" - the slow destruction of her faith by the cult leader's misbehavior, and her escape: it is a very personal story. Yet it is one every spiritual seeker should read. Spiritual seeking is hard. We all get discouraged. We all loose our sense of being drawn, falling each into our own dark night of the soul. That is part of the deal. So none of us is immune to the draw of a person who offers a guarantee, if only we give ourselves up to her or him. It doesn't help that "humility", "surrender," and "obedience" are in the spiritual instructions from most traditions. But do humility, surrender, and obedience really mean destroying the selves we were born to be? Hating the very image of the divine created in us? Krishnamurti said, "All authority of any kind, especially in the field of thought and understanding, is the most destructive, evil thing. Leaders destroy the followers and followers destroy the leaders... Be your own teacher and your own disciple... Question everything." Hard spiritual instruction, that. No mommy or daddy to make our choices and take away our responsibility. But worth it in the end. Gail Tredwell choose to question after being under a cult leader's thumb for twenty years and from a young age. If she can do it so can you. So can I. BTW, it seems like all the ranting, negative reviews are by current members of the Amma cult. They write like deluded souls desperate to hide the truth from themselves and the world. From what they say, it seems obvious most haven't even read the book. I expect a good Amma follower would be forbidden it.

This book was far better written then I was given to believe. I am still with Mother and was actively involved in this group for over thirty years. I had trouble believing everything Gail said. I have witnessed Amma’s temper but personally I have not observed the disturbing behaviors and events Gail described. All that said still I really liked her simple but lovely descriptions of India and I appreciated the little details of daily life in the ashram. I really feel anyone could enjoy the book even if they are not connected to the subject matter. I enjoyed Gail's style so much that I finished the book in three readings. Overall, I would recommend this book as a pretty good read but if you are a devotee of Mother's you probably shouldn't read it- your faith will be sorely tested. One nit- missing from the book is a compelling reason why Gail would even spend one day in the company of the “irrational, demanding, cruel, mean-spirited, hypocritical” guru she describes. I thought perhaps she could have shared some insight into this. Stockholm Syndrome? Identifying with the aggressor?

Story is well written and for me it was engrossing. In matter of fact I red it in a weekend, because I could not stop reading it after I started. It does give a different view, that is hidden from public eye, of mother Amma. But most of all it is surviving story of manipulation and emotional violence (as well physical one) that writer experienced with mother Amma. Even there were a lot of pain and unfairness during her 20 years of serving, the story is not written by bitterness, it is more like telling her experience and speak out finally things she was obligated to hide. I came to read this book after a Ammas tour in Europe 2019. I am not Ammas devotee, but interested of her great work and important message of love and compassion. I did participate two days event on that tour. During the program I noticed older lady who was part of the international team and was there to take care of Amma on the stage. Most of the people who were on the stage with Amma seem to be proud to be there. With this lady I saw rather more resigned expressions while she was carefully taking care of Amma's needs and comfort. Of course I cant to tell sure by seeing some one who i dont know what is going on in her life, but to see it this made me think: If she was the one who get to spend her time so close of the "divine" and "source of life" why she seems to be out of energy, reppressed and so unhappy. After that scene I was searching different views of hugging saint and found this book. Together what I sense by myself on the tour 2019 and reading the story that was logical and told many different aspects, I start to see different and not so divine view of Ammas work, which same time has been surely beneficial for so many people. Many aspects of the book are worth to mention, like how womens were treated differently than mens in a ashram that is starred by female leader, how money that was donated was used different than it was suppose to use and how there were many variation of hypocrite. I recommed everyone who are in spiritual search to read this book before entering guru road to loose themselves.

Another one bites the dust or the trouble with gurus. It is rare that a religious organization has a tell all from someone who has been so high in the organization. The sex abuse in the Catholic Church as an example of deceit well hidden. Tredwell's book is a warning to all spiritual aspirants. Test your guru before you fall in love with them. This isn't a new problem witness the fall from grace of innumerable religious leaders. . Unfortunately this book will probably not reach its target audience, the spiritually naive who are most at risk. Tredwell does a excellent job at showing how anyone can fall into the trap of guru devotion and then justify the guru's abuse of power as "working on their karma". Anyone. I have seen PhD's in religious studies, movie stars and millionaires as well a s a ll kinds of very brilliant people fall prey while looking for God and meaning. I have seen Gurus become seduced by the power they get from adulation and crash and burn. Marx called religion the opiate of the people because when one is addicted all one does is not think and reason well and crave more. These narcissistic sociopaths take advantage of that. I suspect that the bad reviews come from Amma's devotees who have been instructed to write reviews to bury this book in the bowels of history. I would disregard them. I find this sad but not surprising. So why only 4 stars? The book while well written, isn't balanced there is more to the story of Gail and Amma which Gail only vaguely refers to. Gail clearly was instrumental in the building of Amma's huge empire. I would have liked to have known more about the role she played. Amma has also done great good in this world despite her failings.She provided significant aid to earthquake victims in Gugerat , tsunami victims in South India, and elsewhere, built hospitals etc. I suspect many of these projects also led to her tolerating the abuse.There was good being performed. Nonetheless, It doesn't justify it. Are there incorruptible Guru's out there? Yes not very many and they shun publicity for the most part. As the saying goes our experiences are our karma. Somehow it is our responsibly to put our lives in order to come to peace with our past. That requires not condoning these people's behavior, but being grateful for what we did learn about ourselves and life and developing compassion for all involved. I think this book is a cautionary tale for those seeking God in whatever way. It is a must read with the other caveats included. I would also recommend "AFTER THE ECSTASY, the laundry" by Jack Kornfield.

This is an important book to read. It is a journey back to wholeness by the author Gail (I do not know her personally) and a cautionary tale to all who seek higher awareness. I live in a thriving spiritual community, which means human stuff happens all the time. Despite the goal of self-realization shared by all, humans are involved, and the spiritual heights and sometimes lows are a part of the equation. I enjoyed the book because it was a page turner (I read it in just a few days despite working long farm hours) and I love Gail's style of sharing her experience. I was saddened by the inside information, but also feel no need to judge or condemn. In the end, may we all be one in the Light someday. Gail Tredwell- I would love to meet you! My name is Virani and I work with the goats at Ananda Village, a spiritual community based on the teachings of Paramhansa Yogananda. I hope that the fact that it is an organization will not scare you away should you be interested in visiting. We have a yoga retreat center called The Expanding Light that welcomes truth seekers from all paths. It would be a joy to meet you, but if that doesn't happen, I feel the blessing of satsang with you via your book. There are some Amma devotees who live nearby, and they told me that when you left that it took 3 or 4 people to replace you because of how hard you worked. I'll say it again- I loved your book! I am so glad I read it. I hope all is going well for you in your personal journey towards enlightenment. Blessings, blessings, blessings. I haven't written a book, but I was on The Price is Right recently, and I won $11,000 for the goat project! Here's the link so you know I am a real person who is sincerely interested in meeting you, even if this is a silly way of showing it (they use my birth name of Jacquelyn Ramsden): [...]

There have been many revelations in the past decade about the (sexual) abuse that many if the well known and lesser known teachers/gurus have inflicted upon their devotees. For 10 years I used to go and see amma, had inner revelations and insights, was touched. Until one moment at a devi bhava, where I would see her as just an ordinary person playing a role, and the people gathering enabling her to do so. Since that moment I stopped going. For some years after, I would still hold on to amma being different from the other scoundrel gurus. Until i heard stories, mainly about the exploitation of the disciples. It surprises me I didn’t hear about this book when it came out or the years after. I came to know about it only last week, on Lissa’s Rankin’s page and immediately bought it (thank you for mentioning it there). Now that I read it, it’s the confirmation of what already suspected. Thank you, Gail, for putting it out there. Healing after such a long and hardcase of narcissistic abuse must have been a long difficult way. I am very happy to hear you are in a good place now, and that your own relationship with god has not suffered. Wishing you well.

Reality into false divinity. I hope others can get away from this kind of a trap. God Almighty is One and Only, and no human god is required.

The Hugging Saint or "Amma" (Mother) as she is affectionately known, is possibly one of the better known of modern Indian Gurus amongst the Western media. Her coverage is generally favourable. Here is a motherly Indian lady who lovingly dispenses hugs to hundreds of thousands of people and her name is associated with charities and good causes. She's generally given the benefit of the doubt as to qualifying for some degree of saintliness. But what if you want to find out more, perhaps if you're a journalist or a spiritual seeker? Such is her fame, such is the number of people that want contact with her, that waiting for hours on end for a hug is about all you can hope for. You're going to have to deal with the organisation or ashram that has built up around her and the official hagiography that they report. You'll find that Amma is an incarnation or avatar of the Divine Mother, that she is without blemish and is associated with various miracles. She promotes devotion to the Divine which as far as her devotees are concerned has manifested in her particular form. She is the Guru, God on Earth, and salvation is through Her. This is supposedly one form of spirituality associated with the devotional cults of India. In the name of overcoming your ego you give all your power, all your love, to the Guru and then end up jostling with many others in the pecking order for a scrap of attention from the Guru. It doesn't matter what the nature of the attention is. It could be loving or hateful. Whatever its nature it is for your own spiritual benefit. Mind control anyone? This is the trap that Gail Tredwell found herself in with Amma, the Hugging Mother. Rolling up in India in the late seventies, she soon found herself living amongst the swamps and coconut palms in Kerala in the south of India as an ardent devotee. She spent the next twenty years witnessing and contributing to the growth of the cult as she suffered emotional and physical abuse all in the belief that it was for her spiritual benefit. Her book, Holy Hell, is an earnest and heartfelt personal account of what she went through during this time. A great deal is missed out. It seems that the ashram went from being a simple family home to the centre of a huge global organisation within a very short time. Perhaps there's another book to be written but this one focuses on her own personal journey. It's the story of a young Westerner intoxicated and seduced by India and its promises of spiritual liberation through the Guru/disciple relationship. You either buy into this or you don't. Quite frankly if the Godhead manifested on earth then I'd expect more than a hug. What is it that has people queuing for hours on end for a hug? Is there not actually something quite pathetic about it? And what does it have to do with spirituality? Surely, spirituality has something to do with truth and that is where Gail Tredwell has done us a great service in writing `Holy Hell'. Many will wish to dismiss her account but such dismissals are usually done by those that have undergone the self-lobotomising that we witness Ms Tredwell describing in her book. The brain-dead nature of their criticisms is readily apparent. There is no doubt that Amma is an exceptional personality but so are most con artists. She's clearly a person of great charisma but only the psychologically deranged mete out such abuse so casually. In the UK we had the case of a well-known and much loved television personality who raised millions for charities and who turned out to be a rather nasty sexual predator. He groomed the nation just as Amma is grooming millions. How this works is spelled out in detail in `Holy Hell'. It gives us a liberating insight into the nature of devotional cults (and of religion too perhaps?). It is a heady intoxicating experience where insanity is mistaken for spirituality. Common sense and the intellect are turned against the welfare of the individual like some kind of spiritual AIDS. The author did well to extricate herself from this and one wonders how she managed to build a life together for herself after it. Buy her book.

Thank you for writing this book Gail. This is an important piece of work. I highly recommend it especially to spiritual seekers. This book reads as an honest, humble and thorough account of Gail's journey with this Amma. It is an excellent portrayal of the subtle and insidious self-betrayal that can occur to spiritual seekers slowly over time especially when sequestered away from the rest of their life and the world. Thank you again Gail for your self honesty, self awareness and courage. Michele

Das Buch hat mich von der ersten bis zur letzten Seite berührt, mitgenommen und gefesselt. Wahrscheinlich weil ich mich sehr lange mit diesen Themen beschäftigt habe, weil ich Amma, Ihren Weg und einige Ihrer (teilweise auch nahen) Schüler kennengelernt habe und weil das Buch für eine Nicht-Schriftstellerin sehr gut geschrieben ist: kurzweilig und humorvoll, sie erschafft präzise und lebendige Bilder. Wenn sie es zuletzt wagt, ihre Kritik Amma persönlich vorzubringen, spürt man förmlich, wie die totale Verzweiflung und Enttäuschung aus ihr herausbricht. Die endgültige Flucht liest sich fast wie ein Krimi. Ich war vor langer Zeit mehrere Monate bei Amma in Indien. Ich war praktisch täglich in Freudentränen und habe fantastische spirituelle Erfahrungen gemacht – wie wahrscheinlich viele andere auch. Trotzdem wurde ich kein Anhänger von ihr. Ich hatte dann auch keine weiteren Kontakte mehr, aber behielt prinzipiell eine positive Meinung, wenngleich ich mir unsicher blieb, welchen Nutzen so ein Weg tatsächlich haben kann. Und nun dieses Buch. Wirklich wissen können einige dieser Dinge natürlich nur ganz wenige Leute im innersten Kreis. Aber ich habe kaum Zweifel, dass es wahr ist. Wieso? Lieber Sucher, Dein Leben ist gleich wie von einem Sonnenstrahl erhellt worden, als Du nur ein Bild oder Buch Deines künftigen Gurus gesehen hast? Dein Herz hat scheinbar grundlos rasend schnell zu pochen begonnen, als Du ihn das erste Mal getroffen hast? Du wurdest durch seine Anwesenheit, seinen Blick oder seine Berührung in Licht und Frieden getaucht oder in Glückseligkeit versetzt? Du hast gespürt, wie er Dir seine Engel aus der Ferne gesendet hat? Du hast seine herrliche Lichtaura gesehen? Du hast vielleicht sogar gesehen, wie er Dir bei der Initiation einen Lichtfunken seiner Selbst in Dein Herz implantiert hat (Konsequenz wird sein, dass Du dich wahrscheinlich sehr lange seelisch verbunden fühlen wirst)? Oder andere übernatürliche Erfahrungen gemacht? Dann ist es die natürliche Schlussfolgerung fast aller Menschen, dass sie es mit einem vollkommenen Wesen mit perfektem Charakter zu tun haben, dem man blind glauben und folgen kann. Leider kann das ein Irrtum sein – ich weiß es aus eigener Erfahrung auf einem anderen Weg; es ist unglaublich, welche Ähnlichkeiten es bis in kleinste Details gibt. Das alles sind wohl nur außergewöhnliche Fähigkeiten, die Persönlichkeit, die dahinter steht, kann trotz allem einen durchschnittlichen oder gar unterdurchschnittlichen Charakter haben. Die Anhänger, die ganz nah sind und am meisten leiden, reißen sich irgendwann los und geben ihre Erfahrungen weiter: von nur skurril bis wirklich schrecklich kann alles dabei sein. Es gab in den letzten Jahrzehnten ja etliche Guru-Yoga-Wege, bei denen es so gelaufen ist. Vielleicht gibt es auch hier bald weitere Berichte von anderen Aussteigern. Siehe z.B. auch die Bücher von Jovan Jones oder die Kommentare unter amazon.com. Den devotees wird es natürlich schwer fallen, dieses Buch zu lesen, noch schwerer, es zu glauben und noch viel schwerer, Konsequenzen zu ziehen. Die Leute sollten solche Dinge besser lesen, bevor sie in Kontakt kommen.